So a comment that I'm hearing ALOT lately is "I'm lovin that hairstyle/cut on you....you have the perfect face for it"....but the CRAZY thing is, it'll be at weird time...like when I'm sittin at home in my PJ's lookin like whodunit and why and someone comes to visit (family members or friends that haven't seen me since my BC).
What I'm getting to is....sometimes I have this confidence with my TWA where I'm like "ok people think it's cute so it MUST be cute." Or they'll be days when I'm ACTUALLY feeling it...but lately, and I dont kno if its cuz I've been watching too many YouTube videos featuring other naturalistas with BEAUTIFUL textures or what...but I just haven't been feeling my TWA. So most of the time I'll wear a headwrap in a bun....
But that's getting old because I only have a few colors and I'm getting tired of trying to match them...and ultimately wearing the same clothes...
I think a large part of the problem with my confidence comes from the dryness issue (see previous post). I just feel like a have "brillo-pad head". Seriously...And I don't know how to cure it. I haven't quite figured out which products my hair likes or dislikes just yet...but I DID find out yesterday that the Carol's Daughter Khoret Amen Leave-In conditioner could be one of the main things that's drying my hair out. Which saddens me because I LOVE Carol's Daughter....
I also feel like my hair is at a standstill with the growth. I know, I know...I'm not even 2 months in yet. But you guys have to understand. I havent had a relaxer since MAY. I should a LOT more than less than an inch of hair right now...
I feel like I'm complaining. Don't wanna go there.
Don't get me wrong. I LOVE being natural...I'm just a very impatient person. I know what u all are saying, "If you're impatient then you don't need to be embarking on this journey because the MAIN ingredient is patience." Well that's one of the main reasons I AM embarking on this journey, to learn to PRACTICE patience. For the most part its not all that hard. But when I see people that have been transitioning for the same amount of time as me and that did their BC at the same time as me, but they have TONS more growth than I do, it just discourages me.
I'm not gonna give up tho. Someone left me a comment saying that after the third month, the growth would come a lot faster....I hope she's right.
How do u newly naturalistas deal with your TWA confidence problems...?
Before I went natural, I wanted to try a texturizer because I was under the DUMB impression that it would make my relaxed hair curly. LOL....I was soon corrected.
Well...now that I AM natural, and I know what a texturizer actually does, I kinda want to try it...
But I'm on the fence because I know it's a chemical...and being natural is supposed to mean free of chemical products (hence the word NATURAL).
But I just want to see what it does to my texture...like if it will soften it up or whatever.
Any thoughts?????
First off, I wanna start off by saying that Shirai has officially quit on me…she got a perm. SMH...
Anyway…I was just on “vacation” in New York and I was staying with my aunt (who is ALSO a natural). And she introduced me to some new products. I’d heard of Miss Jessie’s™ before but I had never tried it. I didn’t even know where to get it. Anyway, my aunt uses the Curly Pudding®, the Curly Meringue®, and the Curly Buttercream®.
She let me try some of the Curly Buttercream® first and let me tell you…it’s FABULOUS!! It’s made with a cooling peppermint essence so it tingles once you put it on and it feels GREAT! It’s supposed to be good for 2 Strand Twists, Pony Puffs, Braids, Hairline Grooming Creme, Short Naturals and Fades, Growing out Natural Hair. 
Then she let me try the Curly Pudding®, which I had heard a lot about and actually DID want to try. This stuff was really good too. I only tried it on a small portion of my hair and it made my curls pop! J The Curly Pudding® is supposed to transform kinks to curls…which it DOES. 
She gave me her Curly Meringue® because she said it’s supposed to pretty much do the same thing as the Curly Pudding® and she didn’t need both. But I haven’t tried that yet. It’s supposed to be good for Fingerstyling, 2 Strand Twists, Spiral Rod Sets, Relaxed Hair seeking curly styling and Transitioners, Silkeners and Texturizers.
Yesterday I ordered my own Curly Buttercream® and Curly Pudding®. I got the smallest sizes since I don’t have much hair anyway.
So…so far I like these products. A lot of people probably wouldn’t use a few of these because they DO have parabens. But right now I’m not worried about that. I’m just trying to find something that works for my hair and this stuff does.
That's all for now!
Conditioning/ Pre-poo treatment
So I had originally planned on doing an egg/mayo/olive oil protein treatment on my hair....but I went to go crack the egg, and the egg "white" was neon green. Yea. Needless to say I don't think those eggs were any good, so I didn't do THAT treatment.
Instead I made up another one. I put together a few ingredients I had in my kitchen and my hair products: Queen Helene deep conditioner, about 10-15 drops of Rosemary Oil ($7.99 from Whole Foods), a capful of EVOO, and a short pour (sorry I didn't measure it) of Spectrum Coconut Oil ($8.99 from Whole Foods). *Note: it was kind of on the oily side so I think I put too much Coconut Oil...so don't use much)
I applied it with an applicator brush and since I have a TWA I didn't need much. After I was done applying it, I kind of used the brush to massage it in my hair from side to side in kind of a scratching motion. *Scalp stimulation is crucial to promote hair growth.
I let it sit for about 45 minutes-an hour (I lost track of time cuz I was doing too many things) with a plastic cap on my head and for about 15 minutes I had a terry turban on top of the plastic cap (I heated up in the microwave for about 20 seconds at a time). Then I remembered something I read on Mane and Chic about aluminum foil while deep conditioning promoting hair growth, so I traded the turban for the aluminum foil (the turban wasn't staying hot anyway).
I washed it all out in the shower and my hair felt semi-soft after rinsing. Once I shampooed, it felt even SOFTER AND curlier. :-)
Then I just used my regular post-wash products: my shea butter moisturizing concoction followed by Carol's Daughter Khoret Amen Leave-In Conditioner...oh and Monistat :-) LOL
So yea I think I'll be trying this alot from now on...maybe once a week or twice a month.
That's all kiddies!
BIG CHOP!!!
Well that's about it....until next time...
Ok Shirai is currently in the process of taking her braids out and she took a few pics of her hair so far. I'm SOOO hating on the texture!!! It's BEAUTIFUL!!! (She's in denial about it tho...)My Aunt told me I should embrace my OWN texture and she's right...I'll love whatever texture I come out with (but HERS is the texture I can only DREAM of LOL...actually my aunt has a great texture too LOL)
And here is one of my staple products I'm starting off with (that I got from Nina). It's what I'm using to moisturize my hair...and trust me, it needs it BADLY! I used to always be scared to put grease in my hair and when I DID use oil I used a VERY minimal amount because I HATE stiff hair...and I didn't want it to be stuck in one spot over my neck (you know what I'm talkin about ladies...). So the mixture is basically just shea butter with cococunt oil and EVOO (but my grandmother only have Regular OO so I just used that bottle for photo purposes). I put all of that together in an applicator bottle and mix it up. You don't NEED to heat it up but I do because the shea butter won't come out thru the tip because of the consistency (nor will the coconut oil). So I just pop it in the microwave for about 30-40 seconds (and it STILL wont get hot so it's cool)... It makes your hair soft AND smell good :-)
That's all for tonite folks! Good nite!